after a couple days of being
sick
and a couple weeks of
introspection
I've come to a few conclusions.
I've come to have a few revelations.
I've noticed that I gravitate
toward anyone that gives me a nickname.
It is far more likely
that I will be drawn to you
if you refer to me
in any way other than
my given name.
Like if you refer to me as
Little One
Apparently I will hold you dear to my heart.
And if you call me
Baby
or doll face
or any random pet name
(that used to make me sick)
I might just fall for you.
And that's not necessarily a good thing.
Because I don't want another responsibility.
I don't want anything to weigh me down.
I'm already teetering on the edge
and I don't know if I can make it on my own.
I don't know if I can make it in general.
I don't know what I'm doing
any more.